Not so long ago, I became aware that I was a “People Pleaser.” Talk about awkward!!! I’m in a room with my sister who loves the excitement of drama, and my mother who is very “Zen” like. In all honesty, I didn’t know what to do, so I just sat back and let them do all the talking. It was at this time that I realized the people pleasing HAD to stop. I had to start being true to myself. So, the past few years has been a journey of self discovery. I’ve spent my entire life (35 years) doing/saying things to make everyone else happy. I no longer had a clue as to who I really was. What makes ME happy? What are MY interests? MY goals in life? MY dreams? MY bucket list?
Sure we unintentionally slip into this learned persona occasionally (at least I do anyway). But… I recognize it for what it is (a slip up), acknowledge that it’s bound to happen, and keep moving on this journey. There was a point in time where I would walk into a room and wonder if everyone liked me. Now I walk into a room and try to decide if I like them.
These moments are usually awkward as they are happening, but as time passes, we begin to see them in a comical light. I,too, look forward to other’s responses. I felt so alone on my journey, but I know now that I’m only one of many.